Sensitivity

Hello!

This post is about my self, my problems, and my thought about something important in my life..

I never want to be a sensitive person. There are 2 kind of sensitivity.. One is good (how you can feel other people misery, and help them also care about them) and the other one is not very good (how you can easily get mad when something happen which is not what you want or some people said something that make you get hurt, even only joking)

I have that 2 sides of sensitivity..

I can easily know and feel if one of my friend or friends feel sad, worried, etc. If I think I need to ask them, I'll ask and care about them.. But there are times when I think I don't need to ask them. People need privacy. If someone doesn't want to reach me, I'm ok with it, but If they need me, sure I'll be there for them..

But the bad side is more dominant.. That's what I don't like about me.. (Actually it is one of "what I want to change or minimalize" in my life). Like I said up there, I never want to be a sensitive person. 'Sensitive' here means the bad sensitive sides.. I can easily get hurt. Yeah, that's right. My friends don't know about this (maybe). But I feel blessed I have a forgiving nature. I don't mind them. I never take it seriously.

We can't choose our character. What we can do is change them to be a good side of us. I'm learning something now. Actually I feel that I need to have this motto in my life. 'Accept everything that makes you hurt, with smile and throw away the hurt feelings' is it hard to do? Yes. Very hard..

But we live to learn right? Live for me is a process of learning. We'll never stop learning. As if one day I can't learn something, I will make somebody learn from me. I'm not a good person (yeah, not) but we can learn something even from the worst person in this world.. Don't underestimate 'lower' 'poorer' people. So many things that we can learn from them.

Oh yeah about my sensitive character, I don't want to vanish it. I want to reduce it..

To my friends who don't like when I change to be a sensitive person, I'm so sorry. It's not a choice that I can change. It's a gift from God and God has something to do when He decided to 'Plant' this character in me.

I'm learning to reduce and change it.

By the way, why i’m using English? Because I want to make my English writing better. But I still have many mistakes..

Happy Sunday,

God bless :) !

This is My Real Life

Hei,

Uda lama gak curhat lewat blog..

Belakangan idup g serasa monoton abis. Kerjaan g cuma bangun-kuliah-kerjaen tugas-tidur.. ya tentunya plus makan 3x dan mandi 2x sehari. Untungnya sekarang g uda nge-kos. Jd waktu g gk abis di jalan. Tapi, tetep aja jenuh. Biarpun g bisa maen2 ama anak kos-an g, ato berkunjung kerumah temen g, n jalan2 ama temen2.. kehampaan terus berasa..

I'm far from GOD.. i knew that.. But I don't do anything.. Am I such a foolish person? yes..

Mungkin itu salah satu alesan kenapa idup g rasanya kosong banget. Bukannya sok religius ato gimana, tapi sebelom2 ini, g selalu berdoa tiap hari, memulai n menutup hari dengan doa. Tapi sekarang? Boro2 doa, Alkitab aja gk g sentuh. What happen ? I don't know too.. Something missing in my life, but I can't figure it out. G butuh sosok seseorang yg bs mendengarkan g sih intinya.. tapi sampai sekarang, g belom bisa nemuin org itu.. bukan gk bs sih, blm nyadar mgkn. Seriously, I need someone to take me from this 'darkness'..

Off Topic. Ganti topik..

Semester 3 ini..... berjalan dengan cukup lancar..

Flashback dari awal masuk semester 3:

I met new friends.. Dari kelas g, yg masuk cinema itu cuma 5 orang. Tapi ada 2 orang lg yg kbtulan g kenal sebelomnya. Jadilah kita bertujuh. Dengan nama genk MT. G selalu enjoy deh kalau ama mereka.. Mereka adalahh....

Ada si Tantyo (Tanti/Tyo/Bowo) yg suka becanda, kocakm pembangkit suasana dan sosok yg g kagumi ke-kreatifannya.. Bengong nya dia itu bisa jd ide yg kreatif. TOP lah si MT satu ini...

Ada si Harits Indi Pratama (Tommy/Tompel).. Cs an tyo soal ngebanyol, tp sosok yg lembut apalagi ama ce (ato co ny?) sabar dan selalu tulus bantuin org.. Kalau uda ada Tommy + Tyo itu adalah kombinasi yg g yakin seratus persen, bikin lu ketawa.. apalagi kalau di tambah kembaran si Tommy yaitu Donny,, jd lah anak Trio yg 'cool' sesuai foto di background HP n Macnya mereka.

Terus, Bernadus Yoseph (Bejo/Jose) si anak MT ini.. bs tiba2 ilang dhe.. dia sosok yg bingungan, tp punya ide yg bagus. haha. Enak kerja sama ama dia, terus nafsu makannya besar, tp kadang tak bisa dipuaskan karena duitnya kurang. haha.. kocak deh si Aki satu ini..

Cewe2 nya skarang..

Si Rianila Pratiyo (Ato Kampretiyo versi g) ini anak mah uda temenan ama g dari semester 1. dan menurut g sih, kita deket. Tau deh menurut dia.. hehe. Nila itu... keibuan, dewasa, jarang marah, lembut, tulus, dan yg psti, gokil. Kalau gak ada dia, rasanya aneh gimana gitu.. something missing..

Si Vani Sagita (Van-dud) haha.. si MTS (Muka Tanda Seru) dibalik sosoknya yg macho, dia seorang yg perasa dan lembut.. heheh. jgn tanya g kenapa, tapi itu yg g rasakan.. jago gambar, dan rajin membuat tugas. tidak seperti g,, hahaha

Nah terakhir, di Reg_Ita ato regita.. ini objek (orang deh) bully-an g kalau di kelas.. hahah,, anaknya baek, sabar, gk bs marah, nyolot.. haha.. tp anaknya asik lah.. sering kasi g makanan,, dan pintar serta rajin..

Diantara mereka semua, sepertinya g yg paling malas dan tidak dominan,, g sekedar pelengkap kah? ntah.. tp g ngerasa nyaman aja ama mereka.. Seru lah.. dan sepertinya membuat temen2 g yg di DG dan Animasi jadi iri ama kita,,

Semoga kita bs terus seperti ini sampe lulus dan seterusnya.. Bikin film bersama adalah cita2 g,, ahhahah...

I really miss my Vintaje friends..

Dari kita ber-6, 3 animasi, 2 Cinema dan 1 DG,, kangen ama mereka..

kangen nge-babi. kangen belajar di rumah emi, kangen jalan2 pas istirahat.. kangen semuanya..

Tapi sedikit terobati dengan beberapa hari ini sering ngumpul ama Tian, Emi plus Mbaknya si Emi yang bernama Buta (ato g panggil Butty)..

Pegi2 ke Lippo (bc: DOUBLE DATE) hahha.. Maen timezone sampe dapet boneka goyang2, masuk toko yg namanya Chibi Land tapi dirubah jd toko Unyu2.. makan di rumah emi sampe g dikasi pancinya.. Tidur siang di ranjang yang sangat sempit.. meres jeruk sama si butty untuk nyonya emi dan tuan tian.. dan nongkrong di starbucks SMS, mereka bertiga baca komik g doang yg baca majalah dan koran.. Sampe di kasi komik bokep hahahaha... Makan mulu kerjanya..

This is my life.. seakan2 bewarna dan seru.. tapi, hampa di dalam hati cuma bs g rasakan sendiri.. berapa kali g coba bwt cuekin aja kekosongan hati g, tp gk bs.. I think I need to pray..

Disini aja deh dlu.. laen kali curhat lg.. wkwkw..

Have a nice day, everyday!